Lost

I allowed myself to get lost inside you. Now I must set myself free. This person I've become is no longer me.

Empty heart beating in my chest. I am the one to blame. I am now living a life full of loneliness and shame.

A saddened woman who walks alone. A path to a dead street. I need the strength to fight my feeling of defeat.

Each day passes and I continue forward. In due time I will grow. With the each new mornings dawn soon I will glow.

Right now I may be consumed by pain. This pain soon will wash away. These words are all I have left to say.

Love me for who I am. If not then let me go. Do not waste my precious time hurting me blow by blow.

Burned

Your passion always fueled my fire.
You love it is my deepest desire.

I won't fight fate on how I feel.
These emotions in my soul they are for real.

Lust and envy run through my veins.
My eternal love still remains.

Head held high as I push on through.
No one knows my beating heart is turning blue.

I grasp on to nothing still holding on to hope.
I await the day you throw back that rope.

My wish

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

Found this quote last night and I really fell in love with it. My dear friends this wish is for you today and always. Thank you for standing beside me through this trying year.

I realize now...

It took me forever to accept who I am as a person, but for once I can actually say I am proud to be me. I am comfortable in my own skin and no matter what comes my way my dignity will never be stripped.

As a child I was insecure with being tall and would never walk tall and proud. Unfortunately I continued to feel that way until someone opened my eyes to the real me. I thank you to infinity and back for that. :) I have so much to be proud of and there is no turning back to those insecure ways. I am far from perfect, but I can finally accept those flaws since those flaws are what makes me, me.

I have the most amazing friends who I call my family and the most lovable son who helps me see each day the real meaning of this life. I don't think I am lucky, but I sure am blessed.

"A friend is the inspiration in you when you have lost all hope, and they bring out a world inside of you that you never knew you had."

Letting Go

Running through the darkness
On this never ending street
No more hope inside me
Only a feeling of defeat.

I'm going through the motions
I'm lost in this crowd
I can't find where you are
I scream for you out loud.

Your name it echoes
I can't hear a thing
Were you ever here?
Were you just a dream?

These tears they flow
This fantasy must end
My emotions run so deep
I've lost you my lover; my friend.

Work In Progress

Hope - to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.
Courage - The state or quality of mind or spirit that enables one to face danger, Fear, or vicissitudes with self-possession, confidence, and resolution; bravery.
Determination - the act of coming to a decision or of fixing or settling a purpose.
Strength - mental power, force, or vigor.
Desire - to wish or long for; crave; want.
Passion - a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything.
Confidence - belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance.
Love - a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

I can and will become a better person because of these words. I strive and seek to have each and every part of these definitions in my life. I will NOT settle for anything less. My life will become more meaningful therefore it can only get better for my son.

Goodbye

You think you can break me down, but you can't. You think my world will crumble, but it won't.
I am stronger now than I've ever been. You're no longer needed my so called friend.

You think you have what once was mine, but you don't. You think you won this game, but you lost.
I am stronger now than I've ever been. You're no longer needed my so called friend.

You can keep on thinking you've got it all, but you don't. You think you're better than me, but you're not.
I am stronger now than I've ever been. You're no longer needed my so called friend.

So with this I bid you farewell, because I can.